Wednesday, April 13, 2011

My Bucket is Leaking

Have you ever been through a season of life where everything just seems off? When those major components of your life are just not right?

I'm living in one of those seasons now and I have concluded that my bucket is leaking. The emotionally trying days of church issues, family drama, fractured feet, ministry hiccups and routines tossed out the window are taking their toll on me.

If I was a bucket of love and encouragement to be poured out into my life, I would be the bucket above. Holes. Patches. Leaking. Emptying fast.

And yesterday as the rain streaked our windows and tears ran down my cheeks and puddled in my heart, someone stopped by to fill my bucket.

A sweet girlfriend braved the dark and stormy night to sit on my couch and pour into me. To laugh. To understand. To encourage. To listen. To fill my bucket.

And as those moments ended in hugs and promises of phone calls, I realized just how blessed I am. I felt vulnerable and small. Normally, when I feel like that I struggle to change the circumstances, crack a joke to hide my discomfort, or ignore how I feel. But for the first time, maybe ever, I took the encrougement and friendship and knew that life is like that some times.

Sometime your bucket leaks. 
Sometimes your bucket is empty. 
Sometimes your bucket overflows. 
Sometimes you are the one filling others up out of your overflow.

Funny the lessons we learn when we sit in the moments God creates around us. When we live in the circumstances God draws us to - leaning in for His heart and whisper.

God taught me this week that vulnerability leads to deeper love. That sometimes I'm empty. And that He'll fill my bucket with His people, His words and His love!!

And how much more will I enjoy the overflow when the echoes of emptiness still hang in the air?

Father, thank you for the times that make us weak and small. Thank you that You use those times to remind us of Your power, Your plans and Your blessings. Thank you for sending friends to love on me when I'm a wreck and fill me up. I'll cling to you in the midst of this storm, and how I can't wait to overflow again!!! Amen.